I wanna cry in your shoulder and hug you forever. I need you.....

Aku.

Aku ini kenapa ya, heran deh.-. Dari kemarin rasae nda mood lapo-lapo. Serius!
Rasae aku lemeeeees soro. Kenapa ya?
Padahal aku nda ngerasa sakit, nda kerasa ada yang salah, wes jalan ae kaya biasae. Tapi, mboh kok rasae nda semangat soro. Aku ini kenapa ya?.-.
Anyway, besok tanggal 22:)
Dan besok bakal ada acara reuni alumni sekolahku tahun 1992, bapak-bapak dan ibuk-ibuk tuwek yang bakal hadir. Dan aku ngisi band gitu, terus katae ngiringi mba Ines nyanyi, tapi ya mboh lagi. Band ya nda pernah latian, sekali deng latiane tapi itu ya mek dapet selagu tok. Dan sama mba Ines, nda latian blas. Duh aku rasae males soro besok, tapi kok tanggal 22, rasae langsung bedo. Duh aku galau. Tolong. Aku baru sadar lek aku useless.

You know, that feeling when you sad or desperate, then a lover come and hug you, or that feeling when you found your lover hug someone else in that kind of situation or when your lover found you hug someone else in that kind of situation? Have you ever got that feeling?

Today.

Hmm, Good evening blogwalkers:)
well actually, I've my sociology and TIK midterm tomorrow, but I haven't touch my book yet.
Idk why, I kinda thinking of something, that I still don't understand, don't get the point till this sec. Actually, I don't know where, my post gonna walk this time. I just... thinking. There are so much why that dancing in my head. I just feel tired today. I don't have my spirit today, Idk why. Maybe its because I haven't see my papatong today or what I don't know. I even don't know anything. I just gaaaaaaaaaah so absurd-_-
Well, the problem that me thinking is
1. Why I didn't see mas Radith whole day
2. Why I feel so tired
3. Why I don't have a spirit to study
4. Why people change so fast
5. Why I can't understand myself
6. Why I pick English literature for my college
7. Why nowadays I love wathcing Korean dramas
8. Why there are so much why in my head now
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Its not a morse actually, Its... I don't know what is this.
I decide to write this nite, because I've been read the post of my senior in my school. I think the way she write and also the way she think is unusual. Its different from mostly teenager I've ever known. Consist of me. Its like what I've talked is unimportant, its just like I've too much talking bout myself, I never write about the argument of what happened today in the world. I just busy with myself. In fact, I often deliver my comment bout the problem nowadays to the people around me. But, I still don't have time, don't have a chance to make in a post. I just write my personal diary in this blog, ironic... So, how come I pick English literature in my next education if my write is just like the mostly teenager that often have "penggalauan" everyday? Hahaha ironic. Maybe I've to learn from now on. Mas Radith is a good writer I think. Ehm awkay, my mind can't escape from mas Radith, sodara. I miss him, so damn, fucking, super, duper, mega, hyper, much. He wasn't able in da skul, and firstly I thought that he was sick and absent. But, Dhaifi told me that I've to ask his friends. But, Idk why, its rather uncomfortable. So, when I've my English class with my fav teacher, Miss Ika, I asked her "Errr mam, haven't you teach IA 2 today? Does mas Radith come to your class?" And she said "Yes, why Difra? You don't see him lately?" Errrrr mam, you're so true._.
You know, that feeling when you miss someone and you can't see them even for a second? Ya, it hurts.
Mas Radith, what r u doing now? How was your day? I miss you. Lalalaalalaalalala
Tomorrow, POS SMASA will be started again. And I've to attend the OSIS' meeting, but I have to take my English course. The first plan for tomorrow is, I take a bike to go to my course then I'm going to RATNA to buy something and to RIDI com to ask about something that I want to give to my dad in his birthday, 4 days more. Like I said before, I don't know where my post this time gonna walk. So, this is my geje post to cheer you up, blogwalkers.

Uh? Its not cheering you up? Hahahaha It is rightly so.

Ah,
Good nite blogwalkers, sleep tight. Tomorrow is Friday. Have a blessed everyone. Tomorrow I will have my midterm, pray for me yah, I'll pray for you, too. And the last, mas Radith, I miss you.

Difuratia.

Taylor Swift - Safe and Sound is accompany me this nite.

Sometimes I wonder, how can I be so stupid?

Sometimes I wonder, do you still miss me in this kind of situation?

Sometimes I wonder, did my dad ever makes girl cry? or did my mom ever cries for a boy?

Alhamdulillah... o:)

The first word that I wanna say is, Alhamdulillah.... Thanks God Its Thursday:)
Well, today is 22, the day that I've been waiting for. Actually, I think that there won't be any special for today, bcs of the silent of mas Radith. But, today is so WOW! Yesterday, mas Radith told me that how if we went school earlier, and I agreed. So, I told to momsky, dadsky, Dishka and also Pak Nono that I wanna go to school earlier, today. 
So, today, I really go to school earlier. Then, I arrived at school, but still, mas Radith had come first. Then, we went to Math 3 class, to finished my read for Negeri 5 Menara:) When I finished it, suddenly mas Radith took something from his bag, and he gave me kinda present that covered by newspaper, sweet!:) he said that I have to opened it when I've arrived at home, so from that on, I became impatient, I wonder when the bell for go home rings._.
Actually, I just wanna say that I'm happy today, super, duper, mega, hyper happy!:)
Thank you mas Radith for today, well I hope from this day on, our relationship is getting better, amen o:)

So, I got this from mas Radith:)

Ohkay so, what happened to him now? Idk exactly._.
He has changed, I'm afraid._. Ehm but no no no I'm still super happy laaaaah ehehe
hopefully, everything is alright.
You'll be in my heart by Phil Collins becoming my strength this nite.
Happy 22nd of March, my beloved mas Radith. Je t'aime{}


cheers,
neyunasuperu.