Kili

I wanna be your Kili, the partner of everything.
I wanna be your Kili, whom you take care of.
I wanna be your Kili, and being protected by you, like Prince William to his Harry.
I wanna be your Kili, die together in order to save what deserves.

source: google

and I wanna be your Kili, whom right beside you till forever.

Yours

Today, I've my Basic Reading Skills (BRS) class, We're learn about topic, main ideas, etc. And I was asked by my lecture to make a paragraph, and then, I was telling about you.

      Yesterday, he was wearing a black polo shirt and dark skinny jeans. Then, he saw me. Actually, it was just happen. it was unplanned. Its been few days I haven't seen him, so it was a miracle, I can saw him next to me. For the first, he didn't realize that it was me, but he had already seen me, with his confused face. Then I put my masker off, and pat his back and said "Duluan ya, Lib." and he just..... shocked and turned his head and saw me, right on his eyes and said "Tuh kan, Difra, makanya kaya pernah kenal, tuh kan ih Difra, tuh kan." on and on and....... I just love the way he says my name. The way he laughs, with his glared eyes and his moved ears, I mean they're shaking you know (well, I don't know what is the right verb), and his nose was kembang kempis, and it is funny. Very funny.
     And today, he was wearing black and white raglan, and he saw me, and the rest of our group in front of our lovely campus and yea he saw me, he greet me, I'm the first, I don't know is that I'm too eye-catching or what and he smiled and wave his hand and said (it was the best part) "hey, Difra!". I love the way he do that, every time, and I never getting bored. And I also love the smell of him, and his wet hair after he prays, and also the smell of him after the rain, when he gave me the MKI book, and I love every single thing about him, you know? He is just special...

And, I was finishing my oral-paragraph, and my lecture asked "so, what it the topic?"

I answered, "someone whom I adore...... So much." 

D. 

A Very Good Mood

Hi, there.
I've my own modem now so its glad to meet you even often, blog:):):)
Hmm, well, I've my midterm for Basic Reading Skills today and its kinda hard to make a good mood. Dunno why. It seems like every time I see or I hear something related to mas Radith, its kinda hurt my mood, lebay sih, but thats the fact. Hmm, maybe it is really really the time for me, and for you, blog, to have another subject to write on. Is it okay?























Well, lets see...



Anyway,
am I great on glasses?B)

Having A New Life

Hi, blog. Lama nggak nulis.
Postingan terakhirku? Udah lama banget ya..
Aku sudah jadi "college girl" sekarang hehehe dan menyenangkan, mengetahui bahwa aku betah di kampusku. Bertemu dengan banyak orang baru, sangat menyenangkan. Meskipun masih bertitel mahasiswa baru, rasanya sudah lama aku mengenal segala tetek bengek di kampus. Ospek susah, dibentak-bentak, atau apalah segala keluhan para maba bukan masalah bagiku. Aku menikmatinya.

Selamat hari raya Idul Adha, my dearest reader. :)
Agak nggak nyambung loncatnya, tapi mumpung aku pulang dan kecipratan koneksi internet, harus dimanfaatkan sebaik mungkin. Di perantauan, aku masih numpang sana sini untuk koneksi internet. Ya, aku pulang, aku di Probolinggo sekarang, yang (dulu) kusebut sebagai kota tercintaku. Tapi sepertinya, sudah tidak lagi. Nggak ada yang kucari di sini. Kehangatan keluarga? Kebersamaan? Lebih bisa kutemui di perantauanku ketimbang di sini. Sahabat lama? Nggak ada yang ada. Aku memang pulang, tapi aku nggak merasa di rumah.

Mungkin sudah saatnya benar-benar meninggalkan apa yang sudah. Maybe this is the time, to have a new life. Hmm, aku ikut senang dengan kembali aktifnya the apane. :)

D.

Someday

Hi, its 0:40 my laptop's clock.
Its been a long time since I wrote, right? Hehehe well maybe its not that long
Ehm anyway, happy 68th birthday my beloved country, Indonesia. I didn't follow any ceremony today, I mean I have no school now hehehe yea I'm going to college. Time flies..
Lately, I kinda have some insomnia, dunno how, maybe because of the medicine I took.
As you think, my body got down ehmmm 5 days ago. And my skin is getting worst. Sometimes, I really want to have a health body and soul, but then I think, maybe I won't be so close with Allah if I have no pain.

Ok, I don't know where this writing will go but, I kinda thinking.
I've just watched 5cm on one of national tv station, and I remembered how my struggle to get the ticket of it. I remembered mas Radith too. That day, we were..... hmm forget it. Yea, its been a long time, I mean, I know he must be sick of my attitude lately, so I won't disturb him, anymore, I won't yea I won't do anything to him I mean like something strange in his eyes like yaaa ckck I don't know. I just feel like, this is the time, like yea I have to let him on his own. Yea, we're not kids anymore.

But, I have a dream..
Or maybe, a dream won't come true if you broadcast it(?)
but, I just want you to know, blogsky. I have nobody.
Have you listen the song of Bruno Mars, entitled Rest? Ya, that song was you know  amazing, soooooo amazing I think. I don't know how God can create the most romantic person like him, oke alay time-_- no no I mean, I have a dream that #someday there will be someone who sing it to me.. And look into my eyes, deep into my eyes, with his honest smile. I hope, someday..
Or maybe, if it wouldn't happen, I will sing it in mas Radith's wedding. :)
Someday..

D.

Bukan

Kemarin, mba Katarina bilang,

Aku nggak tahu kenapa Radith nggak suka ulang tahun lagi.

Hari ini aku bilang,

Bukan nggak suka ulang tahun, tapi mas Radith nggak suka ulang tahun kita.

Aku Seorang Perempuan

Halo, aku adalah seorang perempuan. Kata orang, insting perempuan itu kuat.
Sebelum nulis post ini, aku sudah googling dengan keyword "insting perempuan" dan yang kudapat,

2.    Intuisi lebih kuat
Insting seorang ibu terhadap anaknya terkenal amat kuat, hingga menghasilkan ikatan batin tersendiri yang timbul sejak si kecil masih berada dalam kandungan. Rupanya intuisi yang kuat tidak hanya dimiliki kaum ibu, karena pada umumnya wanita terlahir dengan otak yang mampu memproduksi intuisi yang kencang. Wanita juga lebih mudah membaca “sinyal” melalui bahasa tubuh atau petunjuk nonverbal yang lazimnya membuat para pria kebingungan. Makanya, wahai kaum adam, jangan coba-coba membohongi kami, karena kami bisa “membaca” pikiran kalian!

Dikutip dari: sini. Berdasar riset dari penulis buku "The Female Brain".

Jadi, dikarenakan aku seorang perempuan dan perempuan memiliki insting yang kuat.
Aku rasa, akupun begitu.

Semua orang pasti memiliki ekspektasi masing-masing, tetapi seperti yang kalian tahu, sesuatu yang berlebihan tidaklah baik. Jadi, ekspektasi yang berlebihan mutlak tidak baik. Aku hanya memiliki ekspektasi, mungkin berlebihan, mungkin tidak, dan aku berharap ada yang mau mendengar ekspektasi yang kukaitkan dengan insting. Hanya mendengar, komentar adalah bonus.

Hei kau, berdua, maupun sendiri. Selamat!

Hi

Actually, today shud be our 22 of 22...