Being Busy doesn't mean You'll Lose Friend(s)

Dear blog,
I've told you in my previous post that this semester is super duper mega tera hyper busy. We have practicum in every subject and also soooo many make up classes because of the lecture's absent, fyuh, moreover when I have to skip class for taking care of organization thingy. Argh, those were make me crazy! But, as I told, thank God for giving me angels such as friends of mine, Nyangkem and also Dea, Sabilah and Frida. But, recently those three girls were I don't know just like they were hiding from me, or it was just my feeling. But ya, you know if there is something wrong, we, as usual feel it. I feel it now, I feel like they are taking a step back from me. I don't know whats the problem, maybe because of my crazy bustle or something else I don't know. But Frida once told me when I asked her to be one of the event's committee I take care of, "I don't want to apply for those events, I just don't want to be busy." Well, I of course, teased with her statement. I don't know what was her purpose by saying that statement but yea I teased, a lil bit, because I've been very busy recently. Actually it is not about being organizer, activist, committee or anything else, and make you busy, it is all about how to understand a friendship. Don't care if we are in what condition, but a real friend always do understand what their friend need, what their friend feeling. I know I know, maybe the way "my girls" understand is just like that, based on their own understanding but please, I do need space to move freely. If you guys all don't want me to hang out with nyangkem, I will decrease my frequency to meet them or if you guys all want to join us in nyangkem its ok, I will ask you to come. I already, over and over ask you to come but you'll always reject it. You said you want to hang out with them, but once I asked you, you refused it. So, what do I need to make you guys understand me? Its tiring to be the one who understand but didn't being understood at all. The point of my writing is, I want to show you what I've learned lately. Being organizer, activist, or committee will not lead you to be busy so that you can lose your friend(s) easily, but it will lead you to learn how you humanize your friend(s).

Dif.

A Real College Life

Dear blogster..
How are you? This is my very first writing for the fifth week of college. I don't know, its kinda hard for this second semester. I feel like I don't really have a time for myself. Its always been E-Lite Voice (my faculty choir)-time or ESA-time or friend time, even time for sweeping, watering flowers, etc, etc don't exist. Fyuh, so tired. But, fortunately, inside of my bla bla bla time, I totally enjoy it. I mean, ya they're my own choice. Well, as usual, I don't know where this writing will go, but, today I studied about "my-usually-writing". It is called freewriting hehehe it is a writing that don't need a grammatical check, cohesion and coherence, but it is only need ideas that won't stop, flowing, like a river. Beside that, I wanna share my sneak-peak with my usual friends now. I really enjoy being around them. They always willing to help, whether it will burden them or not, but, yaa they really care each other. Ehm well, because of my sleepiness hehehe I will close my writing with, actually with a photo of me and my friends, but there were not any. So, I will close it by posting a poem, from Lang Leav. :)

Nitinite, sleep tight.
Dif